I remember hearing one time that a thankful person is a joyful person. I've never forgotten that. Thankfulness and joy are often found hand in hand.
Choosing to be thankful, though, is not always easy, especially when you've lost someone (or something) or walked through enormous trial or pain. Sadly, things like pain and loss are part of life. Though we live in a fallen, broken world, some people seem to walk through more trial and loss than others. That is perplexing to me. I don't know why, but I'm thankful God does. I'm comforted to know that, someday, God will wipe away all tears of those who are His. I’m also comforted to know that pain, sorrow, suffering, and loss were never part of God’s original plan.
Two years ago, I had major surgery the week before Thanksgiving. Anyone who followed my previous blogs will likely remember that. I wrote many posts about it. As odd as it may sound, I'm very thankful I had my surgery when I did. Although it didn't take away the enormous grief of losing something (I still grieve at times), Thanksgiving reminded me that I still had so much to be thankful for.
I've observed that people who choose to look for things to be thankful for, despite pain and loss, tend to be more joyful people. By God's grace, I aspire to be that way - to look for the positive rather than the negative. Easier said than done sometimes. My gardening attempt this year in our small, backyard garden was an example of that.
Earlier this year, I tried to grow a small garden starting plants from seed. Normally, my mom purchases small, starter plants from a local greenhouse, and one of my sisters plants them in our small, backyard garden. Sadly, the only thing I can ever recall us growing successfully has been tomatoes. Our soil is not good. But this year, I wanted to try. I started my seeds in planter cups indoors and waited for them to sprout. I watched several sprout only to die a short time later. I was sad about that, but out of 12 planter cups, 4 of them actually grew! I had two cucumbers and two squash plants. (zucchini and butternut) Although they came up late, I was still delighted!
I faithfully watered them, even prayed over them, and with much joy, I got a some small cucumbers from our garden this year. They were delicious!
| The first of my small cucumbers this year. |
I looked forward to summer squash (zucchini) and was so excited when I saw bees come to pollinate my plant after praying! I finally saw very small zucchini begin to appear, and I pulled out my zucchini cookbook in anticipation of a bountiful harvest.
But then a strange, white, powder-like mildew appeared on the plant! Oh no! I looked it up online and found a homemade solution to spray on the plant to kill that mildew. I also cut back some of the dead leaves on the plant, and sure enough, it worked! I was relieved! But the small zucchini died in the process. I continued to pray and water the plant.
In early September, my mom got a notification on her iPad stating this had been the hottest summer on record in the USA. I was glad it wasn't just me that thought so! I found out later that extremely hot weather can affect plants, especially, zucchini plants.
Our weather finally began to get cooler, and I saw very small zucchini appear on my plant again. My butternut squash plant began growing small squash as well. I was thrilled! But then, colder nights arrived, and both squash plants eventually died.
After being in bed for two weeks with Covid during the last two weeks of October, I went to check on my small garden, and of course, everything had died. Everything was done.
Knowing that our first, light snowfall was coming in early November, I dug up my four dead plants. It was difficult for me not to cry. I watered them so faithfully. I prayed. I did everything I knew to do to try growing squash - to no avail. Nothing. Not even one squash. I tried so hard.
As I was digging up my plants in an effort to get the garden ready for this winter, I decided to quote Psalm 1 from memory.
But his delight is in the law of the LORD; and in his law doth he meditate day and night.
And he shall be like a tree planted by the rivers of water, that bringeth forth his fruit in his season; his leaf also shall not wither; and whatsoever he doeth shall prosper." Psalm 1:1-3
And he shall be like a tree planted by the rivers of water, that bringeth forth his fruit in his season; his leaf also shall not wither; and whatsoever he doeth shall prosper." Psalm 1:1-3
Suddenly, right there in my little garden, surrounded by dead plants with withered leaves, verse 3 took on a whole new meaning to me! Although my plants died, God promises that those who walk with Him by following His Word will produce fruit and will not whither away like my dead plants did!
What a promise!
I was happy that I got some cucumbers at least. To my friends who grow and preserve food, my little garden was a joke. I had a friend in the state of Missouri sending me pictures of the piles of produce she was growing without even trying that much. She was so kind and caring and felt bad that I tried so hard and got almost nothing.
But for me, I chose to be thankful for my cucumbers, and for the promise from God's Word. I also learned a lot this year about gardening by asking questions from others. That is something I am thankful for. Even though my garden may have been a failure (now I know why my mom gave up here!), it was not in vain.
I walked away from our garden that afternoon with joy rather than sadness, thankful for what I did get and what I learned from it.
I have a nice pile of mulch and compost on our garden to help the soil over the winter. Next year, I'm going to let our garden completely rest, something we've never done. In the Bible, farmers were to let their land rest every 7 years. I’m going to do that in an attempt to hopefully bless our soil and give it a rest.
Normally, as winter approaches, I don't look forward to it as much as other seasons. But, this year, because I've chosen to look for the positive aspects of winter, I'm actually thankful for it.
To me, winter is a season of rest. It's a season to read, to do indoor projects, to cuddle with a blanket and a warm drink, and the list goes on. Winter is a gift from God. Winter has a beauty all its own.
If I continue with my thankful list about winter, it might just become my favorite season. Maybe.
I've learned that thankfulness makes me a more happy, joyful person, even in the midst of a failed garden and a broken world!
| A recent photo I took of the late autumn/ early winter sky. |
To those who belong to God as His children, this is not our forever. This is not our final home. And for that blessed truth, I am deeply thankful.